Starting Again: New Place, New Perspective, New Possibilities

It has been 7 years since I felt like I was stagnant in a forgotten corner of the Universe, which ironically, is located at the heart of a bustling city. I had felt like this before too, in a different time and place. The only solution then was to move out, move on, and move in to another place, another job, another identity. Now, I am repeating the process again; but this time, not from a place of frustration but one of hope and freedom.

The view from the balcony at night where I can finally see the sky and the cityscape.

Big changes like this usually come with a kind of foreboding for me. I can feel it in my gut, months or weeks before – both the feeling that something must change and that something will change – it’s just a matter of time. But I also know, that to hasten the process, I need to act and to trust the Universe.

When I’m unclear on how to act next, I usually try to find the things around me that I can immediately act on to move me closer to the goal, however small it is. Then, I ask the Universe for a sign that tells me that I am in the right direction and I keep moving that way. It was the same process this time.

It was a scary decision to finally make the change because everything came and happened quickly – the list of available apartments, checking out the place I want, the contract discussion, moving out arrangements, and finally, the contract signing. Moving out and moving in took several days. Everything feels like a blur now, but all the painstaking detail and challenges are still etched deeply in my mind when I recall it some days. All in all, I’m glad to have a friend to help me during the crucial time.

The view from the balcony the first morning I woke up from my new apartment. — The view from the balcony the first morning I woke up in my new apartment.

Waking up in a new apartment, despite all the mess of moving in, was a very pleasant experience. Unlike in my forgotten corner before, I felt a sense of freedom especially when I look out unto the balcony and see the vast expanse of sky, the cityscape, and of course the feeling of sunshine on my skin. It was dark and closed-off before, but now the future seems brighter just because of the expansive view.

I was determined to move out not only because I felt stagnant but also because I had a very strong feeling that I needed to make a major change in my life and moving out was the big change for me. I had stayed in the same place for 7 years; and it must be the 7-year itch, but my whole being was wanting a change of place, a change of pace, a change of perspective. I believed with all my heart and mind that it was possible – I didn’t really care about the how – I just believed the Universe will work in my favor. And it did, and I am grateful every day that I trusted my intuition.

Everything is not perfect but I am in a better place (physically and in other aspects) right now. In this new place, I will start a new chapter – and I will try to make it an even more interesting one this time.

P.S. This blog may have taken some time to get started, but the journey was still satisfying; and I am looking forward to more exciting adventures.